Like a Bad Parent or Owner

I’ve neglected you.
I know, it hurts. I suppose I should have known too.
It’s only now, now that I’m back, that I see you, that it really sinks in.
I put a lot of work in to begin with, you know! You and I went really far together.
We did and saw some amazing things, you were so full of promise.
And then I got tired. I let you linger.

Don’t worry though, Travels of Jack. Now that Jack has stopped Travelling he has time to spend with you. I mean, I won’t be here all the time. I’ve got some work writing travel articles somewhere else. I know, money over love. But it’s not all money over love! I’ll still do work here. Oh, and I’m doing some volunteer work at Vooks.net in the meantime as well, you know, reviews, like I did in the old days. Oh, and I’m covering some events for him, and maybe even doing some interviews! That’s exciting, isn’t it? I thought you’d be happy about it… happy for me.

I know, this isn’t the life you expected. I suppose that it’s time I told you something. Something important. I made you to… to exhibit my work. You were like a living resume. I breathed all that life into you, sold my kidney and chopped out my ribs so that you would have life and that I would have work. You’ve done that. But I’m still here, right?

I mean… I might even put some more photos up! It was really hard on the road. I’ll have to sort through them first. Upload them. I know, more work, less time for you. But by doing this work, it means I can spend more time with you, right! It’s only for a little while. There are only so many photos to sort through, right? There’s a limit to that.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I still love you. I stopped in and checked on you while you were sleeping. I watched your bandwidth beat when you were on the hospital bed, getting slower, slower and lower. You were asleep then too. I think one day soon, when I’m lonely or restless, I’ll read all the way through you, and let the good memories wash over me. I love you, and I know plenty of other people did and still do.

You mean a lot to me.